Another day at home sick has brought lots of reflection: Maybe it is just that I'm sick and we are out of food and one of us is going to have to leave this house to get food to feed our family and neither of us want to do it.. who knows...
So as I've had a chance to read through my friends blogs and get all of there links put onto my page. I find that I am really missing those that are so familiar to me. I miss that familiarity and the comfortableness that comes with knowing people and being friends with them for years.
I was always in the processes of making new friends and I love meeting new people and making new friends. But I always had the old friends who we were familiar with that we could relax with and be friends with and never really worry about saying the wrong thing. There was always family around that if I did say the wrong thing it was o.k. because most of the time (sooner or later) they would forgive you and love you anyways.
Here I find that I am in a constant world of unfamiliar. That I don't have anything familiar to fall into. That I never get to relax and just be 100% myself because I don't know what is safe to say or safe to do. I'm learning and things are becoming more familiar.
It is funny that it takes reading my friends blogs to realize that. I go to Shayleen's blog and how I wish for our time of letting the kids play while we scrap book or made cards. I look at all my friends pages and I long for the times when we hung out and laughed.
Anyways, I just long for a bit of familiarity. For a time where I can relax and just be 100% me. In time it will come. But for now. It is fun to read my friends pages and remember good old times. Thank you for sharing. -- But if anyone wants to come to Europe we would like it if you visited us.
Friday, June 20, 2008
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Oh Boy, do I wish I could come visit you there!! You are missed, and I hope you feel better soon.
Oh, I feel for you. I can only imagine how hard it must be to be away from your family and old friends sometimes, especially when you're not feeling well. I SO wish we had the money to visit Europe (and you). We'd be there in a heartbeat. Get well soon!
I totally know how you feel. I wish I had the money to come and visit you, I miss the play dates that we had and the I can tell anything friend is in Europe. I ask Brayden if he remembered Brianna and he remembered the pic of her but not her name, when he saw you he said "That is Shawntel and we went to McDonald's with her" and I said "Yes that is right" I hope you are able to come down for Christmas and if not then for Kaitlyn's baptism. I hope you all get well soon and I will have to IM you later.
It must be hard on you sometimes, but I hope we can make a difference and "ease" the longing.
We want to come visit. We are going to visit before you leave the country. I promise! I'm gioing to apply for Visa's right away so when we do plan to come we wont have to wait for the dang things.
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