one of those weeks

This week has been one of those weeks. You know the ones where you get pushed to your absolute limits and you break!

So Kaitlyn sat down with me and had questions about the changes that will happen to her body and she gets bigger so I explained it to her simply and she wanted to know more about the monthly cycle so I looked up a nice picture chart on the Internet that shows the ovaries and explained how it all worked and why you have these monthly cycles. She then asked if I kiss a boy will I get a baby in my tummy. So then I had to find a nice way to explain it to her but with out to much detail. Only a little stressful but not to bad.

Second a very close friend of mine has had lots of questions about the church and wither or not they even believe in the church or not. It makes me really sad because I have been friends with this person for so long and I have tried talking with them but I feel so helpless in this situation. I have prayed to know what I can say and what I can do but this friend seems determined not to believe any more and I feel so sad inside.

There is this person that I have been doing some work for. We agreed on a price in the beginning of 350 euro a month for the work I would do which would be about 80 hours per month. This persons then starts talking that since I was salary that they would just maybe use me extra days here and there with no extra pay. When opportunity came I asked to paid hourly because it was given to me as a choice. They then set my hourly pay at 4 euros per hour. 4 euro times 80 hours is only 320 euros per month. When I pointed out they were underpaying me they got mad and angry at me but then reset the pay to 4.50 per hour which comes out to 360 per month. I said fine if you want to. The exact pay should have been 4.38 to go with the original agreement. But then they said but we will only use you 40 hours a month instead. I patiently dealt with this. I still did the work that they asked. Accept for the first month that I was suppose to work those 40 hours they ended up only using me 20 hours instead and canceled on me on the other 20 hours.

In addition to these stunts each time the communicated with me they would let me know how displeased they were with my actions in one way or another. I dreaded talking to them and felt like I was being verbally abused with ever interaction with them.

Brian and I had a friend invite us to go on small trip with them on one of the days they had scheduled me to work but that didn't mean they would use me as they had cancelled at the last minute several times already. I felt like this working arrangement wasn't working out anyways and so I emailed them and told them I needed a vacation day. They were mad at me and told me how inconsistent I was and how I kept changing things on them and that I had made things horribly hard on them by not doing the full 80 hour work. They then let me know that come October 1 they were going to use someone else for there needs.

I was so mad. I mean I was so mad I blew like I have never blown at a person before. I let her know exactly how rude and jerky I thought she was. And that I quit now! It so isn't worth it.

The problem is I know the I should never treat any person this way, no matter what. You know there is turn the other check and all that other stuff. I had been praying and trying to know how to best deal with things. But it was to frustrating. I feel so angry and embarrassed about it all at the same time. Yes I needed to quit but I needed to do it way nicer.